Fuckety fuck fuck

[susandennis]

I decided after yesterday that I'd go to the fire station every day until I go back to Dr. Worry Wort when I would present her with a Normal report card and say Ha! And then I learned that my normal isn't normal any more. It's now pre-hypertension at best. Fuck.

This morning I went back to the fire station and it was closed. ???? I guess my plans for a nice little home fire need to be postponed until Monday. (Actually, I suspect they were in there but since it's the HQ for Seattle, they had the office closed and there was no 'come on in here door'.) So I went on to the next one which is about a 10 blocks away. Chester (not cute but soooo nice) was happy to do it.

I gave him a goal - beat yesterday. He blew it. And he tried. He even did the other arm and got it better but still it's not good. 142/78. Dr. Worry Wart is not going to be happy. Plus the more I read about it the worse it gets. Readings outside of the doctors office are, according to WebMD or Mayo, I forget which, generally lower than what the doctor sees so she's going to mentally add up. (This must be the blood pressure equivalent of TV cameras add 10 pounds.) Also everyone over 55 that does not now have high blood pressure is only minutes away from getting it so there's no point in even trying.

Fuck. I think I need to go back to not worrying about it. I have already decided no fire station tomorrow. Maybe Monday. We'll see.

Comments

[pinkrose70.livejournal.com]

When I first was diagnosed with DVT, I came home from the hospital and started reading everything I could on the Mayo site and others.

The more I read, the more my fear mounted that I would throw a blood clot or stroke out at any moment.

I don't read any of it anymore!

You're right. It's almost better not to think about it.

Ha

[spiritgirl.livejournal.com]

I think ignorance is bliss when it comes to health problems....especially if you're not interested in changing anything.

What about those automatic blood pressure checker thingys in the pharmacy? You could go at any time and not have another person to rely on? But that goes nack to whether you want to know or not. I'm gonna make a terrible old lady. Every pain or ache I'm wonder "is this it?"

And do you realize that you are still middle aged? All this talk about health concerns, and you could be knitting in that condo 30 years from now!

[roadskoller.livejournal.com]

Aw sweetheart. My husbands high blood pressure has been dealt with pill wise. The pills are expensive, but they keep you from having a stroke.
Let's just say, that we out here don't want you to stoke out and become a vegetable.
You're an interesting human.

[laciann.livejournal.com]

Are you sure you wouldn't be putting less thought and stress into this if you just took the pill? It's no big deal, really.

[tmb2005.livejournal.com]

Well, 142/78 is not great, but it's certainly not awful, either.

And I know how you feel about this sort of thing - the slippery slope, and all that entails - but really, it isn't intrusive to take the pills. I've taken two every morning for four years, and it's become just an automatic habit. I take them without thinking, they don't interfere with my life in any way, and they work.

[porcinea.livejournal.com]

I was pretty annoyed when they changed the numbers, too. 'Swhy I had to have a c-section. And doctors *freaking out* right and left. Grr. Argh.

I vote for "don't worry about it".