spitting bullets
May. 7th, 2003 02:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
susandennisI am so pissed I can't see straight. Well, that's not exactly true. I am working hard to get over it and am on the way. But an hour ago, I was so pissed I couldn't see straight.
I joined this company 22 months ago and was promised a raise in 6 months. 6 months came and went and I asked my manager for feedback on my performance and she said she needed to check on some stuff and would get back to me. When I didn't hear anything after about 4 months, I asked again and she said that she needed to consult with the guy who handles HR.
12 months later she was going on maternity leave and I asked again. Please could I get her opinion of how I was doing? She said that they had decided that there would be no raises until we showed a profit. I said that I understood that but would still like some feedback. I got squat.
Over the past 2 months she has said a couple of times that she needs to do my appraisal. Great, I said, every time. Today she sends me a note asking me if I've completed the appraisal form yet. WHAT FUCKING APPRAISAL FORM????????
Well, turns out she sure meant to send me this new form they have and just forgot. But, I need to fill it out from scratch listing my objectives and how I think I've done against them. What objectives, I asked? Oh, you know, she says.
I sent her a note saying that especially in light of the fact that I have asked repeatedly and gotten nothing and now am being forced to evaluate myself against a set of objectives that I must also invent, I thought this was pretty unfair treatment.
I then told her in the note that I would get over it because I am a big girl and that I would look at it as a chance to rewrite history. I'll do it this weekend and she can do what she wants with it.
I think it's pretty clear that I am not a very valuable employee and that this company has the balls of a gnat. If I suck, fire me. If I don't, then tell me when I ask. It ain't rocket science.
Yes, I am paid well and yes the commute is wonderful and I have gotten to do some really fun things and I've learned a lot, but I have an expectation that I will be treated honorably and fairly by my employer. Not happening. In addition to rewriting history this weekend, I think I'll make sure my resume is up to date. I know it's close but it will make me feel better to make it perfect.
Ok, now I am officially over it. Thanks for listening.
I joined this company 22 months ago and was promised a raise in 6 months. 6 months came and went and I asked my manager for feedback on my performance and she said she needed to check on some stuff and would get back to me. When I didn't hear anything after about 4 months, I asked again and she said that she needed to consult with the guy who handles HR.
12 months later she was going on maternity leave and I asked again. Please could I get her opinion of how I was doing? She said that they had decided that there would be no raises until we showed a profit. I said that I understood that but would still like some feedback. I got squat.
Over the past 2 months she has said a couple of times that she needs to do my appraisal. Great, I said, every time. Today she sends me a note asking me if I've completed the appraisal form yet. WHAT FUCKING APPRAISAL FORM????????
Well, turns out she sure meant to send me this new form they have and just forgot. But, I need to fill it out from scratch listing my objectives and how I think I've done against them. What objectives, I asked? Oh, you know, she says.
I sent her a note saying that especially in light of the fact that I have asked repeatedly and gotten nothing and now am being forced to evaluate myself against a set of objectives that I must also invent, I thought this was pretty unfair treatment.
I then told her in the note that I would get over it because I am a big girl and that I would look at it as a chance to rewrite history. I'll do it this weekend and she can do what she wants with it.
I think it's pretty clear that I am not a very valuable employee and that this company has the balls of a gnat. If I suck, fire me. If I don't, then tell me when I ask. It ain't rocket science.
Yes, I am paid well and yes the commute is wonderful and I have gotten to do some really fun things and I've learned a lot, but I have an expectation that I will be treated honorably and fairly by my employer. Not happening. In addition to rewriting history this weekend, I think I'll make sure my resume is up to date. I know it's close but it will make me feel better to make it perfect.
Ok, now I am officially over it. Thanks for listening.