Body Dysmorphic Disorder
Jan. 2nd, 2005 03:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
susandennisI have it. BDD. I spent a while today trying to get my web cams situated so that the party people could get the best view. As a result I spent a lot more time looking at myself on camera and, honestly, it's a shock. I do not look anything close to what the camera is showing.
I kind of look like me but it's a me without makeup on and hair done and a me that is packing more than 125 unneeded pounds and one too many chins.
For some reason the mirror does not have as sharp a contrast between the me that I see and the me that is real. But the camera view is just a total shock and not that pleasant a shock. Yes, I know I could lose the weight, exercise the extra chin away, put on make up and do my hair but I chose to believe that the camera, does, in fact, lie. I'm ok with the way I look until I see those pictures.
The fix, of course, is for me not to look at the cam shots. I can do that.
I kind of look like me but it's a me without makeup on and hair done and a me that is packing more than 125 unneeded pounds and one too many chins.
For some reason the mirror does not have as sharp a contrast between the me that I see and the me that is real. But the camera view is just a total shock and not that pleasant a shock. Yes, I know I could lose the weight, exercise the extra chin away, put on make up and do my hair but I chose to believe that the camera, does, in fact, lie. I'm ok with the way I look until I see those pictures.
The fix, of course, is for me not to look at the cam shots. I can do that.
