Yikes

[susandennis]

My LJ world has got a black cloud over it. I just finished reading my friends' entries and so many of them are having such a hard time. Their worlds are so black that even some known comment whores have turned off comments. Illness - theirs and their loved ones, expenses, failed relationships and what I would call doom and depression setting in on some. Wow. I'm so sad for so many of them. I wish I had a magic bullet, the right words to say, the exact little something that would make each of them feel better if only for a minute.

My life, right now is at about the polar opposite. I'm almost looking forward to losing this job. I am definitely coming to look forward to getting my teeth fixed - not the pain of it but the after of it. (Every date I hear these days I think of in terms of before or after D-Day - July 11.) And between that and the condo makeover, I am in more debt now than I have been in years and years and looking at having no income to pay off that debt but I love the new stuff. (Plus, in my heart of hearts there's that whole impending death theme going and the idea of leaving all this debt to my sister just tickles me to bits.) And the bus fare is going up next week so that it will absolutely cost me more money and take me more time - portal to portal - to take the bus than to drive my car but I cherish the bus time. And my baseball team can't quit letting teams beat them but crappy baseball is better than no baseball at all.

I'm a freakin' Pollyanna.