udon yum

[susandennis]

It's damp and gray and chilly and just the very perfect day for the large container of udon with shrimp.  Yum.

Work is slow but steady.  I have a 2 p.m. meeting which will be canceled about 1:45, I predict and then I'll go get that haircut. 

No baseball tonight and none for the next whole lotta nights.  Since that's my only sport, I'm sport free until February/March.  I'm ok with that. 

Once, a long time ago, when I was at a crossroads in my life, a guy who was helping me decide what to do next told me to close my eyes and imagine my ideal self in 5 years.  He had me describe everything, what I was doing, how I felt about it, what I was wearing, the highs and the lows of my ideal self in 5 years.  At the time, I thought it was an idiot but I needed the help and I played along and I paid only the attention needed to get him to move on to the next thing.

However... 5 years later, I was in almost exactly the scenario I described to him that day.  Once I got over being freaked out by the realization, I repeated the exercise to myself many times over the years.  Sometimes the images were crystal clear and sometimes they were muddy and stupid.  But, I swear there's some kind of magic in there somewhere.

Cut to today when the life I have is a little bit better than the most ideal one I ever picked.  I did not get here by some meticulous plan or really any plan, rather by a long series of missteps and guesses and luck and good decisions and bad.  I'm actually amazed over and over again every time I think about what  cool life I have now and how I got here.

I'm amazed and so so so very grateful for everything, including this delicious soup.