The luxury of wasting time
Apr. 21st, 2008 11:55 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
susandennisI've been thinking a lot lately about how people fill time. People with families and full time go to the office jobs really seem to only fill in the few gaps they have. My neighbor who, is retired, tries to play golf every single day. Ann, down the hall, who retired last year with her husband, tries to limit her days to one commitment per day.
These days - particularly the past few weeks - I've had tons of time to do with as I wish.
In my younger years, I would world hard to fill up every minute with something substantial. Read a book, take a walk, find friends to get together with. And mostly waited for something - a vacation, a special day, a move to a new place. In most of my adult years, I've had jobs that averaged about 10 hours a day. And also waited and worked for the next promotion or the next job. Free time was kind of scarce.
Now I not only have time but time to reflect on how I use the time. And there is no more waiting. I'm where I want to be doing what I want to do.
It's a luxury and one I appreciate so much. I love not having to do what I don't want to do. Not having to cater to someone else. Having time to organize myself. Having time to consider things. Having time to play fetch with Travis and stoke Betty when she wants it.
I do wonder now and again about waste. Wasting time. Should I be doing something else with it? Sure, I should. I should volunteer to help those less fortunate. I should spend some time somehow making the world a better place. I probably should spend some time making me a better me. And someday I might, but for now, I'm just enjoying what I have.
I still check myself often. Yikes! It's noon. What happened to the morning? I frittered it away. Do I care? Heck no.
I cannot think of anything more luxurious than that.
These days - particularly the past few weeks - I've had tons of time to do with as I wish.
In my younger years, I would world hard to fill up every minute with something substantial. Read a book, take a walk, find friends to get together with. And mostly waited for something - a vacation, a special day, a move to a new place. In most of my adult years, I've had jobs that averaged about 10 hours a day. And also waited and worked for the next promotion or the next job. Free time was kind of scarce.
Now I not only have time but time to reflect on how I use the time. And there is no more waiting. I'm where I want to be doing what I want to do.
It's a luxury and one I appreciate so much. I love not having to do what I don't want to do. Not having to cater to someone else. Having time to organize myself. Having time to consider things. Having time to play fetch with Travis and stoke Betty when she wants it.
I do wonder now and again about waste. Wasting time. Should I be doing something else with it? Sure, I should. I should volunteer to help those less fortunate. I should spend some time somehow making the world a better place. I probably should spend some time making me a better me. And someday I might, but for now, I'm just enjoying what I have.
I still check myself often. Yikes! It's noon. What happened to the morning? I frittered it away. Do I care? Heck no.
I cannot think of anything more luxurious than that.
