Body Dysmorphic Disorder
Jan. 2nd, 2005 03:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
susandennisI have it. BDD. I spent a while today trying to get my web cams situated so that the party people could get the best view. As a result I spent a lot more time looking at myself on camera and, honestly, it's a shock. I do not look anything close to what the camera is showing.
I kind of look like me but it's a me without makeup on and hair done and a me that is packing more than 125 unneeded pounds and one too many chins.
For some reason the mirror does not have as sharp a contrast between the me that I see and the me that is real. But the camera view is just a total shock and not that pleasant a shock. Yes, I know I could lose the weight, exercise the extra chin away, put on make up and do my hair but I chose to believe that the camera, does, in fact, lie. I'm ok with the way I look until I see those pictures.
The fix, of course, is for me not to look at the cam shots. I can do that.
I kind of look like me but it's a me without makeup on and hair done and a me that is packing more than 125 unneeded pounds and one too many chins.
For some reason the mirror does not have as sharp a contrast between the me that I see and the me that is real. But the camera view is just a total shock and not that pleasant a shock. Yes, I know I could lose the weight, exercise the extra chin away, put on make up and do my hair but I chose to believe that the camera, does, in fact, lie. I'm ok with the way I look until I see those pictures.
The fix, of course, is for me not to look at the cam shots. I can do that.
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Date: 2005-01-03 12:16 am (UTC)Real fire?
And you're just like me,can't watch TV without doing something with my hands..wish it were early evening here,I have doll's clothes to knit
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Date: 2005-01-03 05:05 am (UTC)There's some leftover cheesecake and chocolate fudge. I'm sure that if you had been able to eat with us, that we would have had exactly enough food.
Thanks for joining us. Happy new year!
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Date: 2005-01-03 05:35 am (UTC)And, you are right, if I had been closer to the action, there would have been no issues with leftovers. None.