Sunday

[susandennis]

It's a cool and gray Sunday morning. Most people around here will wake up bemoan that the sun is not out. Not I. No sun equals no heat. Love it.

The fabric place doesn't open until 11. I plan to be there when the doors open. There are closets on both sides of the bedroom and this morning when I work up those ugly old user-hateful doors were just mocking me... 'yeah, you may have figured out how to ditch us but it took you 10 years! neener neener'

My poor hosting company is still not back all the way and I fear that it never will be. So I signed up with another one. Now I will be doing the uploading that I did yesterday again today... At least it doesn't require heavy lifting.

I put the ashtrays away today. I had them washed and stacked near the sink since last week. But, today they are high in the cubbard. It's been a week. I now declare myself a non-smoker. I can't imagine taking it up again but if I do, it will have to be as a non-smoker - one who backslides. This is as opposed to a smoker who can't quit. Sleeping is a lot easier but the litter box really stinks now. Trade offs.

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[susandennis]

Yeah... I hate leaving the fun stuff behind. My favorite ashtrays are those ones with the holders are in the middle (as opposed to the edge where if cig burns down there's a good chance it will fall right out of the ashtray)... I've never found one made with anything but plastic so they look like crap but they worked.

And, they weren't dangerous. I had one of those beautiful heavy chrystal-looking suckers and I did manage to knock it over... onto my toe which it broke! The ashtray was unharmed.

Zippo... I was by myself at a San Jose Giants (AA team) game and I heard the distinctive sound of a Zippo flipping open. I whipped around to see this very cool looking guy. We dated for the next 3 years. He always told everyone he got me using his Zippo pickup flip.

Thanks for the walk down smoking memory lane... And thanks for the encouragement. I'm a little surprised as how valuable the well wishes and support have turned out to be.

I have a friend who lives upstairs who owns a gym across the street. I can't see my going in there anyway, but I wouldn't just to protect her. She's drop dead of shock if I walked in and I like her too much for that.

[waning-estrogen.livejournal.com]

Congrats on being a quitter. I got deathly pneumonia in January, and ended up quitting while I was in the hospital and unconscious, so I didn't have any kind of withdrawals to survive. It's been 7 months for me now (plus 20 pounds, but we won't go into that, as I think hormones are also part of it). I still want to have a smoke, especially when I sit down at the computer with a cup o' coffee, but know I can't ever start again.

[susandennis]

Thanks... you know, it's interesting... you clarified something for me (probably inadvertantly!). I've been thinking of withdrawals and cravings an interchangeable. I haven't had any withdrawals that I can pinpoint - other than the cravings. I gave up monitoring my weight when I hit 50. I eat what I want and I'm fat. This is working for me and another 20 pounds won't even be noticed. So that leaves me with cravings as the only negative side of quiting. Well, outside of a better sense of smell... that whole kitty litter problem.

I am grateful that I didn't have to do it your way. Thanks for the post!

[teasdale.livejournal.com]

I have been remiss in commenting on your stopping smoking. Mostly because I smoke, too. Lately it has become such a stigma to be a smoker, that I kind of hate to lose one of my group. :) You know how much misery loves company and all that. But..if you've put the ashtrays away after a week, then God bless you.

I've smoked for thirty years and I smoke for all of the reasons you mentioned in an earlier post. I'm not ready to quit, if ever. And I still don't notice the litter box smell. hehe

Keep up the good work, Susan.

[susandennis]

Thanks so much. I especially appreciate it from one whom I abandoned! I think you nailed the trick to quiting. Being ready. When you are, you will know. Until then, enjoy! And thanks for your kind words. S.