getting gelled

[susandennis]

I got up early to polish off my Monday morning work chores. Then hit the shower. Then got dressed and now I'm about 15 minutes too early to leave for the clinic. Stressing over this thing kept me awake a long time last night. For so long my medical theory has been that if I don't know about a potential medical issue, it won't hurt me. So I have judiciously steered clear of as many medical tests as possible.

I don't have a desire to live forever and am already too old to die young. I'm ready whenever. I just don't want to crawl through a medial morass of crap. Said medical morass can easily start with these silly tests. Hence the stress which is stupid. I should have just told the cute doctor, no. I've done it before an I don't know why I didn't this time but since I didn't, I should just bite the bullet and let it go. I'm not clear why I can't or won't. In 2 hours it will be a done deal anyway and whatever they find, they find.

Comments

[aellia.livejournal.com]

I'm very like you in my approach to all things medical.
Hope it all goes well.
Catch up later.
xx

[howeird]

My guess is you are having the tests because you are mostly healthy, and if you can get back to breathing normally, you won't need to be going to doctors.

[rsc.livejournal.com]

am already too old to die young.

No argument with the rest of it, but on this point I respectfully disagree.

[susandennis]

ha. ok. It would sure be silly of me to argue with you on that point!