Yikes

[susandennis]

My LJ world has got a black cloud over it. I just finished reading my friends' entries and so many of them are having such a hard time. Their worlds are so black that even some known comment whores have turned off comments. Illness - theirs and their loved ones, expenses, failed relationships and what I would call doom and depression setting in on some. Wow. I'm so sad for so many of them. I wish I had a magic bullet, the right words to say, the exact little something that would make each of them feel better if only for a minute.

My life, right now is at about the polar opposite. I'm almost looking forward to losing this job. I am definitely coming to look forward to getting my teeth fixed - not the pain of it but the after of it. (Every date I hear these days I think of in terms of before or after D-Day - July 11.) And between that and the condo makeover, I am in more debt now than I have been in years and years and looking at having no income to pay off that debt but I love the new stuff. (Plus, in my heart of hearts there's that whole impending death theme going and the idea of leaving all this debt to my sister just tickles me to bits.) And the bus fare is going up next week so that it will absolutely cost me more money and take me more time - portal to portal - to take the bus than to drive my car but I cherish the bus time. And my baseball team can't quit letting teams beat them but crappy baseball is better than no baseball at all.

I'm a freakin' Pollyanna.

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[rsc.livejournal.com]

And my baseball team can't quit letting teams beat them

Yeah, tell then to cut that out, at least while they're playing Baltimore and Toronto.

[susandennis]

It's a bitch. I feel the responsibility, from you guys, too - making it all the more harder... Yikes. I really thought we had yesterday's game. I'm so tired of losing.

[drood.livejournal.com]

Oh god, am I a known comment whore, then?

[susandennis]

If the foo shits...

But, actually, not to steal your thunder, you are one of two... Sharing the limelight is a bitch, tho. Sorry.

[katbyte.livejournal.com]

I think of many days when your entries have cheered up my little corner of the world. I think just going through your condo renovation helps us think of other things besides ourselves.

[susandennis]

That is just the nicest gift. Thank you! Really. That just makes my day.

(And there is so much more to come... I just got a note from Sheri that John (the handy man) is off to the home center to get everything he needs for my hallway shelves and the mug shelves over the kitchen sink. And they will be a deep piano shine purple!!!!!!)

[katbyte.livejournal.com]

I am so loving this. What a total difference.

[quirkstreet.livejournal.com]

Have I ever mentioned that seeing Pollyanna in grade school was kind of a formative experience for me? I don't think you should regret that you've got an upbeat attitude in the midst of a bunch of changes, positive or negative, or even just complicated and neutral. And in case I'm one of the suffering comment whores you've been worried about (because it's all about ME), just know that I think you're neato, and life goes on.

I worry about some of our other mutual friends too--when I'm not thinking about ME. :)

[susandennis]

Thank you - that's very nice of you to say but I'm afraid that you are wrong... It is not about you... Sadly, for you, it's about ME!

I know you are suffering and I wish I could fix it. I can give you an LJ promotion. You are one of the people I am concerned about but I did not think of you as a comment whore. But, since you stepped up to the plate, you can now be one. Officially. I love my comment whores!

[quirkstreet.livejournal.com]

You are really sweet. You do know this, right? My suffering is easier when I talk to coworkers who are going through the same yuck, and when fabu people like you say nice things to me. And when I remember my meds. Longer term, I have stuff to work on, and I'm not going to overlook how tough things are lately, but today, for example, is a good day. :)

[machupicchu.livejournal.com]

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Do you take Sound Transit? I found a notice in the King County Metro site about an ST fare increase but none about regular KC Metro.
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[susandennis]

YES, Sound Transit and only some routes (like mine) - going from $2.00 to $2.50. I doubt any bus you use will be affected. At least I hope not.

[machupicchu.livejournal.com]

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Whew!

(Actually I have an annual pass good for up to four bucks per ride that I got through work for the awe-inspiringly cheap cost of $25 -- but I'd still hate to find out even that will go up when it expires in October. It doesn't sound like it will, so that's good to hear . . .)
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[pinkrose70.livejournal.com]

Well, heck...why do you think I read your LJ and look forward to each entry?

Not only are you articulate and interesting, but you have those fun webcams set up and you're so good at giving us daily updates.....it's a pleasure to escape from my own trials and tribulations. You already DO give "the right words and little something to say,just by being here on LJ. I don't remember exactly how I found your journal,but I'm so glad that I did.

I tend not to spill my guts about most things in my own postings. Oh, I'm OK..I'm able to walk better now, my relationships are good, my lack of a good job is my biggest problem and the contrast in my financial situation from just 2 years ago is huge, but I know it can't last forever....so I just read everyone elses and figure we're all in this together.

[susandennis]

Thank you, that's very nice of you.