D Day

[susandennis]

This is it. The day is here. My first email of the day was from Kieran who will be picking me up this afternoon. He said he had arranged for me to have a complete makeover including fuchsia hair while I was under. Ha! I wish I was going to be that 'under'. The next time I see him it will all be over.

Meanwhile this morning I am so sleepy. I was dead asleep when the alarm when off which is unusual and could hardly keep my eyes open on the bus and I still don't feel like I'm awake. No coffee isn't helping. I doubt it's the one little valium from last night. I think it is more likely psychosomatic.

Orange juice is a very poor substitute for coffee.

Thanks to everyone for their good wishes. I am such a chickenshit about this whole thing. It's really stupid to have to waste good wishes and thoughts on something that thousands of people do every day willingly with no sedation. Self indulgence is ok when you are eating good chocolate and don't care how fat you get. Not so good when you spend years avoiding something and then weeks and weeks whining and bitching and moaning and carrying on about it like it was the end of the world.

I am waking up a little now. I'll be leaving for the bus about 10:40ish. I expect to be home by 5:30ish.

Comments

[artisanal_xara]

Good luck! :)

[katbyte.livejournal.com]

Thanks to everyone for their good wishes. I am such a chickenshit about this whole thing. It's really stupid to have to waste good wishes and thoughts on something that thousands of people do every day willingly with no sedation.

Good luck. Some of us think know this is a big deal. Everyone is different.

[aellia.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking about you,Susan
My husband had the world's worst dental phobia,so I know, a little of how you feel
Love and all the luck in the world
xx

[ruralrob.livejournal.com]

If it's a big deal for you, its a big deal to us. (And it would certainly be a big deal for me.)

Thinking of ya, Susan!

[melodysk.livejournal.com]

You are in my thoughts. Go to sleep thinking of me sweltering here in the UK and wishing I had your A/C unit :)

Good luck!

[ms-hackman.livejournal.com]

Good luck!!!!

[dizzdvl.livejournal.com]

You might be getting on the bus already, but you will do great! I will be thinking hot pink hair thoughts for ya! ;)

[jimcarson.livejournal.com]

As a fellow dentalphobe who always opts for full sensory deprivation (just short of what was done in the movie Altered States), I hope the only thing you remember is Kieran's red hair.