Less than good

[susandennis]

Swimming today - 1
Land yesterday - 3

This is not good. Today's swim was so bad that I only got half the distance in the usual time and I'm pretty sure that's a generous report. It was so bad that the swimmer in the next lane stopped and asked me if I was ok. "You usually never stop and today you are all stop." Yep.

I think tomorrow, I'll skip first thing in the morning and try heading to the pool after I've been up for a while and see if that makes any difference. I swim for fun and today was not fun.

I have had a very healthy life. I can pretty much remember and count on one hand the total number of times I've been sick enough to stay in bed for more than a day for all of my 68 years. I broke my arm once when I was a teenager. That's it. That's the sum total of my physical misery. Until now. I have no tools to deal with this. I keep thinking that life is too short to live any of it in this kind of distress. If all goes well, I may have 10-15 years left. I'm not at all interested in spending them like this.

And then, my other self says. WTF. Get over yourself. If you sit still and don't move, you are fine. There is lots of stuff you can do sitting still - stuff you really like to do. Yes, if this goes on forever, it will suck but surely you can suck it up and deal with it for now and until it gets better. If, this time next week, it is not, call Dr. Lung and get a plan.

ok.

Meanwhile in the tiny part of my current life that is not whiny, I'm doing laundry this morning and plan on some sewing. I want to remember to check on the football games. I'm now mildly interested in the scores, not particularly the games.

Comments

[rosegardenfae.livejournal.com]

Not good for sure. Personal experience has demonstrated how challenging the adjustment can be to a different lifestyle so I'm gonna hold a positive image that this will pass soon. You are such an inspiration, hang in there woman!

[susandennis]

Awww Thank you! Really.

[found-world.livejournal.com]

Best wishes for this!

[susandennis]

Thank you.

[kinderheldin.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, it's important to just put the brakes on and readjust. You have been going, going, going. Rest is okay, too. I bet you anything, you'll be on the other side of this spell soon. I wondered about whether the chlorine was affecting you, too, a while back. I'm sensitive to all sorts of chemicals, and sometimes I just shut down for a day ... then I'm back, full self/force. I'm not saying anything you probably haven't thought of, just reinforcing the need for the ebb to the flow. :) (I keep up with your posts even if I don't respond ... just letting you know. Sending positivity and healing thoughts ... :)

[susandennis]

Odd timing. I was just sitting here thinking that the one thing I haven't tried is nothing. Dr. Lung said yes - quickly and definitively - when I asked him if I would get back to the way I was. I keep forgetting this.

I really really really need it not to be the chlorine.

Thank you for the thoughts. And the comment. I get really wrapped around my own axil sometimes and it's lovely to hear outside thoughts - especially such caring ones.

[kinderheldin.livejournal.com]

I know someone who is a swimmer who has asthma, and only when the chlorine is at a certain level does it trigger his asthma. I hope it's not chlorine, but if it were, it may very likely be manageable (via selecting only pools that have certain levels of it).

And if Dr. Lung said you would get back to yourself as you were, I'd trust that for now and rest for a while. A few days of rest (at least two!) can work wonders. I say queue up the Netflix! :)

[howeird]

Sad to hear that swimming has suddenly become not-fun. It has been the anchor of your day for a long time now. Maybe doing the many things you enjoy which can be done sitting still is a good idea for a while. And the scooter idea is brilliant.

Meanwhile, there's this to look forward to. :-)

[susandennis]

Yes yes yes yes!!

[opakele.livejournal.com]

You do go, go, go.

I get it, I need to be busy too. I was raised expected to push through discomfort and illness. I'd tell my mom I didn't feel good, she'd feel my forehead and tell me I'm fine and going to school.

It would be hard for me to reign it in.

Give yourself some time. An update to Dr. Lung might not be remiss, either.

Good luck.