I give up

[susandennis]

So Frank texted me that H-Mart was finally open downtown. This store has been 'opening soon' since the Bush administration (either one). I wanted to see it. So I put on my new walking shoes (which feel so great, by the way) and walked over to the free downtown shuttle.

This walk is 2 blocks. The shuttle would drop me off at the aquarium which is another 4/5 blocks from H-Mart. It's not hot out. The sun is not out. It's not too cold. In other words, Perfect weather. Perfect footwear. I waited for the shuttle for 10 minutes and thought about walking the rest of the way to the store, walking around the store and then, somehow, getting myself home ... shuttle, bus, walking and I just decided I wasn't that interested.

So I came home. And, by the time I got here, I knew I had made the right decision. I am old and out of shape and it's just not worth the effort to me.

There is some kind of turning point here I think and while I know I'm supposed to be bummed or embarrassed or ashamed or something about it, I'm really not. If there is something I really really really really want to do, I'll figure out how to do it. Otherwise, I'm fine with not doing what I don't want to do.

It's the life I've always wanted and I'm delighted to be enjoying it the way I want to enjoy it.

Comments

[susandennis]

Thanks

[lenine2.livejournal.com]

You're my hero.

[susandennis]

that's both flattering and ill advised :)

[laura davidson (from livejournal.com)]

You could have managed it, it sounds like, just fine - if you had wanted to. But why spend the effort on it if it isn't worth that much to you, when you can spend that effort on other things instead?

I wish more of my days worked that way! So I have something to aspire to, some day. :)

[susandennis]

:)

[kk1raven.livejournal.com]

I see no reason for you to be bummed or embarrassed or anything like that. Choosing not to do what doesn't seem worth the effort sounds fine to me.

My opinion of H-Mart is that it makes me wish for Uwajimaya but given that H-Mart is 120 miles away, near where my sister lives, and Uwajimaya is more like 2700 miles, I end up going to H-Mart. H-Mart does tend to sell good produce at really low prices.