Missing

[susandennis]

This time last week, I was getting The Smalls ready for the vet. I really do miss that little guy. And a lot of the time I think Biggie needs a playmate. But, adopting now would be a PIA and so then I come to my senses.

Two cats are more than double the trouble. And Biggie is a fine cat. But I do miss the little one.

And I miss swimming. So much. I miss the clean, weightless, feeling. The feeling of accomplishment. I miss my gym buds. It is very likely that when our Stay At Home orders are lifted and the gym re opens, the bridge will still be out. I have already planned to go once, anyway. Just to say hi and experience the gym like it was new again (assuming they do clean it). I have a couple of ideas about where to swim until the bridge is back. But I do miss swimming. So much.

I miss being able to pop into a store to pick up peanut butter and other stuff I'm out of. I miss the Goodwill Store so much.

But, since there are at least three more weeks of missing and very likely more than three weeks, I'm going to put all the missing out of my head and focus on the good. I have enough of everything (except peanut butter). I have all the entertainment I could ask for. I have a safe, easy, flat walk I can do every morning and I do it every morning without hating it. I have a lovely home that I do not have to share with anyone. I have money enough to live on without worry. I have Amazon. I have Door Dash and I even saw a delivery time available at Safeway yesterday. I am healthy.

I have way many more excellent things to focus on than the bummer things. So that's my plan.

Also Biggie is wonderful.

Comments

[siglinde99.livejournal.com]

I hae been missing noise this morning. As an introvert, I am usually more than ready for silence or contemplative action when I get home. Like you, I really miss the swim time for that. Our pools will not open before June 30, so that’s out for quite a while. Biggie looks content despite missing his little buddy.

[carriea31.livejournal.com]

You are right to focus on the good things. It's such a weird time we are experiencing right now. Yesterday I was really thankful that we have a backyard to get out in. Others with kids are not so fortunate and they must be going stir crazy, if they are normally the type to go for parks and stuff. I am thankful we can get out there and wander and look at rocks or play with the ball or whatever. We have friends in Morocco who are not allowed to leave their house AT ALL. The husband can leave once a week to get food and must take his town issued permission slip to do it, but no one else can leave. The only place they have to get fresh air and sunshine is on their roof. Lots of their neighbors don't even have that luxury....so how fortunate am I!

[daphnep.livejournal.com]

Just keep him away from styrofoam. My heart can’t handle it if anything happens to Biggie.

You’re right, it’s all a lot of missing.

[carriea31.livejournal.com]

P.s., as I was looking at this post, Abby came along and saw Biggie. She spent some time telling me all about it. "Cat! CAT! CAT! MEOW MOW MOW!" Biggie provides entertainment all over the place.

[susandennis]

That's pretty fun.

[maju01.livejournal.com]

I'm very thankful that we are still allowed to go out to exercise, and that this morning we found a relatively uncrowded route.

[susandennis]

Yeah, as much as I hate hate hate exercise (outside of swimming) I've really enjoyed my little morning walk and am very grateful I can do it without worry about running into people.

[lenine2.livejournal.com]

I'm also very grateful for my situation, compared to others. (I wish I were more like you, getting up to walk each morning.) I miss my co-workers. Since I moved here in June 2018 I haven't made any new friends. My only social life was work. We are very social at work. We have a 3 PM Friday Happy Hour on Zoom, which is great, just to interact with each other. My loneliness is easy to ignore when I remember that my paycheck has not been interrupted by any of this, and the company I work for is still doing business.

I watched your video last month. You do have a wonderful home!

[susandennis]

thank you!

[kk1raven.livejournal.com]

I think focusing on the good is the only way to get through this without going crazy. I'm mostly avoiding thinking more than a week or so ahead because thinking ahead means thinking about what's missing and that leads to feeling crappy without accomplishing anything constructive. Thinking about all the nice live-streamed music I've been listening to, and all the things I'm getting done at home is much better.