But, really, do I care

[susandennis]

Last night I slept with the foot of the bed way up until finally about 4 am I lowered it a bit. Too high. My feet and ankles were just like yesterday - not nearly as fat as last night but still chubby. This morning I put on the compression socks which are a lot less odious than I expected. I normally don't even like socks but these aren't horrible. I do expect it will feel blissful when I take them off, however.

But, the question is, why do I care. My regular doctor rarely even looks at my feet/ankles. A couple of years ago, I pointed out that one was way bigger than the other and he was not impressed. My lung doctor always pinched my ankles to check. BUT I don't see him any more, only the nurse practitioner and she doesn't care. Neither my feet nor my ankles hurt when they are swollen and I have no current contracts for feet/ankle modeling that I need to worry about so, why do I care? I don't think I do. So I think I might just take these socks off and put them in the drawer for when I do care and quit worrying about it.

What I am going to worry about today is the kitchen. I have two shelves that need culling and... both my fridge and freezer. Mainly the fridge. Since I now have a semi nearby grocery again, there is far less need for massive storage of stuff. It's always a crap shoot. Am I going to use that milk/cheese before it goes bad? Ditto celery/onion. Etc. So I buy and then hold on to it until I can actually see the mold or tie a not in the celery. But, now, a quick jaunt up to Amazon Fresh will fix any shortage so I think it's time to mend my hoarding ways and clean out the fodder. Those last two green onions are screaming to join their brethren in the compost bin.

I find myself getting more and more COVID stressed. The number of cases in the Seattle area is growing in leaps and bounds - a 250% increase in the last few days. The new thought of booster in 8 months, makes me eligible next month. Which makes me think rightly or wrongly that my current safety net now has a gigantic hole in it.

So except for forays to the aforementioned grocery store, I really don't have any place I need to go until my next baseball game in a week. And I'm getting a little antsy about that one already.

Then I stop and breathe and fall back into if it's my time to go it's my time to go. So why get all stressed.

Instead I think I'll rejoice in the tweet I just saw that says that the city's wading pools are all closed today because it's not hot enough to open them!!! And my air conditioner is getting a much deserved rest. The door to the terrace is open and it's much easier for Biggie to get his 'prey' inside now. Oh wait, that, last bit needs to go in the 'con' category.

Comments

[mollywheezy.livejournal.com]

I wear compression socks too, since I have vena stasis (a type of vein insufficiency.) And I hate them! I used to always be barefoot unless I was at work. I was told that whether or not it is painful now for ankles to be swollen, it can become painful if not taken care of early. I have seen people, like my dad, who wouldn't wear compression socks and ended up in the hospital on IV antibiotics for cellulitis. Now that he is being compliant with the compression socks, his are not swollen and no risk of hospitalization. This isn't the time to end up in the hospital. So if they don't bother you, what's the harm? I don't want you to end up with a painful condition that could be prevented.

[susandennis]

Interesting but I tend to make choices on my life now, not some promise if the future. I totally understand and realize that most people have different views.

[sherlock999.livejournal.com]

OK, you might not be worried about that swelling, but I'm worried for you. Shame on your health care providers for not checking on it! Could you get an appointment with your lung doc him- or herself? Any history of heart problems, which can be related to edema? Sorry if I'm butting in--Just take care of yourself!

[susandennis]

Yes, you are butting in. You and I share very different views on health and have very different tolerances for medical procedures. I have lived a very long and wonderful life. I chose to live the rest of it on my terms, not on medical ones. If it hurts, I fix it. If it doesn't, even if it promises to kill me, I leave it. What will happen will happen, I'm totally at peace with whatever that is.

I appreciate that you are younger and have a very different situation. But, yours is not mine :)

[sherlock999.livejournal.com]

That's fine. Sorry about that! I should add that I'm only about 6 years younger or so. And I realize having cancer a few years ago had a huge effect on me, since it easily could have been missed. That said, I totally respect the choices you are making. For me, the issue is that I want to understand whatever is going on medically, so I can make a good decision for me. My greatest fear is not knowing something important about my own health.

[susandennis]

i have zero fear of not knowing. my greatest fear is treatment.

[epiphyta]

Watching the case numbers climb is making me feel better about my choice to go for another virtual season with Pacific Northwest Ballet; we're a month out, but I'd be willing to put cash on the Symphony's opening night in September being cancelled.

[susandennis]

when i read that yesterday i gave you a thumbs up — smart move — albeit silently :)

hopefully, we're now at the peek and it will be downhill from here but still...

[epiphyta]

I hope so: our first concert is end of October, and Benaroya is "requesting" proof of vaccination through Lumedic. I'd give good odds on that becoming a requirement after the opening gala.

[susandennis]

I would not hate it if it was a requirement to do anything and everything.

I did not know about Lumedic. I wish the Polyclinic would a vaccine passport.

[sleepybadger.livejournal.com]

I have one ankle that's bigger than the other after two bouts with cellulitis in the same place a year apart. I don't love that they are different sizes, but the doctor basically said as long as it's not swollen to where if you push on it, the dent stays for a long time, it's just the shape of my legs now.

[susandennis]

weird how things like feet and ankles can grow to be different sizes in old age. i worry that i'll need to buy four shoes to get two to fit!

[kensmind.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, by the time I arrived here, Seth had already purchased a foundation for the mattress in the master bedroom, so a bed like yours wasn't an option. Fortunately we both like the mattress we selected.

[susandennis]

the mattress is really what counts. you can swap out the base anytime but a good mattress is worth its weight for sure.

[amw.livejournal.com]

Are just the case numbers climbing, or the hospitalizations and deaths too? Here in BC there is an alarming spike of cases, which is why i want to avoid Kelowna on my trip south, but so far the hospitalizations are still low, compared to the last time the cases were this high. Over here it's because it's mostly young people who didn't get vaxxed so they are recovering a little more easily. Still a bit scary, though.

[susandennis]

Deaths are down but hospitals are nearing capacity.