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susandennisEveryone's all over self care these days. And I get it but as a basically selfish person upon whom no one depends, it's a bit of over reach for me most of the time.
But, today, I indulged. Years and years ago I had a friend and a boss. I moved on from the world that intersected with them. I was, for years, flattered that they made the effort to keep in touch and I kind of responded but without a lot effort. In more recent years, my friend took to calling and wanting to talk for ages about people I no longer remembered or stuff I didn't care about. My boss sent me family newsletters every Christmas. I met his wife once and never knew any of his family.
Finally, I quit responding. I ignored my friend's voice mails and the newsletters stopped coming. I figured the former would give up and the latter was dead. Both 90+.
But today, the phone rang and my boss name was in the caller ID. I let it roll to voicemail. He called to tell me that my friend died yesterday. "Call me and I'll fill you in on the details and we can catch up."
No thank you. I don't need details and I honestly am not interested in catching up.
It's mean and cold but that's my self care. In my next life, I'll be warm and caring. Not in this one.
But, today, I indulged. Years and years ago I had a friend and a boss. I moved on from the world that intersected with them. I was, for years, flattered that they made the effort to keep in touch and I kind of responded but without a lot effort. In more recent years, my friend took to calling and wanting to talk for ages about people I no longer remembered or stuff I didn't care about. My boss sent me family newsletters every Christmas. I met his wife once and never knew any of his family.
Finally, I quit responding. I ignored my friend's voice mails and the newsletters stopped coming. I figured the former would give up and the latter was dead. Both 90+.
But today, the phone rang and my boss name was in the caller ID. I let it roll to voicemail. He called to tell me that my friend died yesterday. "Call me and I'll fill you in on the details and we can catch up."
No thank you. I don't need details and I honestly am not interested in catching up.
It's mean and cold but that's my self care. In my next life, I'll be warm and caring. Not in this one.
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Date: 2023-01-02 02:55 am (UTC)My brother was always about himself and his family. He left home at 21 and visited maybe once a yr. He never helped me with our parents in anyway. He was quick to tell me how I should lead my life. I kept the peace for my mom while she was alive. I tried after she passed to be civil, but he pushed once too many times. I said I was done. He bitched to our extended family who tried to shame me. I ignored it and do not regret it at all. Toxic people will continue to try unless you shut them down.
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