It's damp and gray and chilly and just the very perfect day for the large container of udon with shrimp. Yum.
Work is slow but steady. I have a 2 p.m. meeting which will be canceled about 1:45, I predict and then I'll go get that haircut.
No baseball tonight and none for the next whole lotta nights. Since that's my only sport, I'm sport free until February/March. I'm ok with that.
Once, a long time ago, when I was at a crossroads in my life, a guy who was helping me decide what to do next told me to close my eyes and imagine my ideal self in 5 years. He had me describe everything, what I was doing, how I felt about it, what I was wearing, the highs and the lows of my ideal self in 5 years. At the time, I thought it was an idiot but I needed the help and I played along and I paid only the attention needed to get him to move on to the next thing.
However... 5 years later, I was in almost exactly the scenario I described to him that day. Once I got over being freaked out by the realization, I repeated the exercise to myself many times over the years. Sometimes the images were crystal clear and sometimes they were muddy and stupid. But, I swear there's some kind of magic in there somewhere.
Cut to today when the life I have is a little bit better than the most ideal one I ever picked. I did not get here by some meticulous plan or really any plan, rather by a long series of missteps and guesses and luck and good decisions and bad. I'm actually amazed over and over again every time I think about what cool life I have now and how I got here.
I'm amazed and so so so very grateful for everything, including this delicious soup.